The holidays themselves were not so bad. My granddaughter is just shy of 7 months and such a little doll. I truly enjoyed her first christmas. My family is well. We had a very nice gathering with my grandmother and extended family on Xmas day. It was all very good.....except....
Gary was not part of it at all. And I was not a part of his holiday. His choices have finally made me realize that what we had is no longer there. He spent Christmas morning with his kids at his ex wife's apt. Supposedly it was for the "kids". His kids are 17 and 22. Hardly still children. He made his choice. I have to now pick up my pieces.
I'm sad beyond sad. I have cried and cried and cried. He still calls and I still take his calls but I think I need to make the break on New Years. I think there is no better time to start fresh than right now. A new year. A new start. He has been very thoughtless of my feelings. He has been very careless with my heart. We aren't even dating at this point. I haven't seen him in over 2 weeks. He has made no mention of getting together and it's not up to me. He still calls every day but I don't know why. I guess I'm a good sounding board when he needs to talk. I guess.
I still love him. It takes awhile to get over that. But I have to love me more and treat myself better than he is treating me. I have to, no matter how hard it is.
2 comments:
I'm sorry sweetie.
I think you are making the right decision. and maybe just maybe this might be what he needs to change his mind...I mean sometimes you have to realize what you are missing, ya know?
You've probably already read or heard of this but..
http://www.baggagereclaim.co.uk/the-no-contact-rule-e-guide-newsletter/
http://www.baggagereclaim.co.uk/the-no-contact-rule-rose/
http://blog.howtogetyourexbackfast.com/frequently-asked-questions-about-break-ups/
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